Monday, April 13, 2015

Life lately..

Well... It's been a while lol.

I was going to wait until we moved to our duty station to write a post but lately i've been feeling an urge to put something together. Even if I know no one really reads my blog, I just like to let things out from time to time, and if it happens to help someone out in the future... then great lol. 

These past 7 months have flown by, and so much has changed, but at the same time so much hasn't changed lol. I think one of the big obvious things is that we have made a transition from a Civilian family, to a Military family. J graduated from bootcamp mid November last year, and has been away at A School since then. We're still living with my parents till we PCS, which won't be soon lol. Other than J being away, not too much has changed yet since we're still here at home around family. FaceTime has been a GODSEND though because it gives us a sense of normalcy as a little family. J is able to FaceTime Juelz and I every single day, and he's able to give us good night "hugs" & "kisses" every night before bed, so I am extremely thankful for technology. 

So far the distance has strengthened us as individuals, as a couple, and as parents. I'm really proud of Juelz too, yes he may be just a toddler with no concept of time, however toddlers do have feelings and they always don't understand why daddy is only on the other side of a screen most of the time, but I would say he's adapted really well and understands as much as he can. The amazing thing about kids are, is they're extremely resilient, far more resilient than us adults.

J gets to visit us soon after he graduates from A School, and we're so super excited since we haven't seen him new years day and luckily his visit here at home will be a little longer than his visit for the holidays. These past few months haven't been so bad since they have really flown by, but what sucks is the home stretch lol. I think Juelz feels it too since he hasn't been wanting daddy to get off FaceTime at night lately. 

I am going to post things I've learned so far being a new military wife, a lot of the blog posts I see are often about people who married into the military but I don't see too many blogs of families that go from civilian to military. Not that there is much of a difference, but I feel like perspectives in the beginning can be a little different since J and I started this new military journey together... so to speak. 

Anyways other than that... Not much is new over here lol. We do finally have hard orders, but i'm pretty sure i won't really talk about it until it comes closer to moving since anything can change. I know hard orders are not likely to change, but you just never know lol. 


Tuesday, August 5, 2014

I'd like a shot of creativity please!

I've been in a creative funk for quite some time now. 

As some of you may know, I used to go to The Art Institute for Fashion Design. I quit about almost 4 years ago when I only had like 8 classes left to graduate. I totally flushed thousands of dollars down the drain... I know. But to be completely honest, I don't regret it at all. 


haha. Seriously though, I just really didn't have the drive anymore. I found myself skipping class often, and doing the bare minimum to get by in school and then I just knew that it wasn't for me. Now don't get me wrong, I still absolutely love fashion and I love designing, but not as a career. 

Since then, I haven't been drawing or painting as often as I like... I even feel like I need to re-learn everything since I feel like I've lost my creativity. I do crafts here and there, but it's nothing like it was before. I've basically just been making excuses.

Every so often my husband and I have moments of reflection together, when I'm feeling overwhelmed about silly things, and stuff like that. The other day I was telling him that sometimes I just feel like I have so many things on my mind, but none at the same time. I have so many ideas, but none at the same time. Does that make sense? When I lay down my mind is running at a mile a minute and I can't focus on one things. When I start a project I think of something new and don't finish what I was working on prior. I am very scatterbrained and it can definitely get exhausting sometimes. 

My husband completely understood (he's amazing and he makes sure I find my head lol). He suggested that I "un-plug" from time to time since I'm always on my phone checking something. I instantly agreed. 

FaceBook, Instagram, Blogs, Pinterest, etc; have most of us consumed. I find myself comparing myself to others because of social media... 


 I look on Pinterest and see all these ideas and get overwhelmed. I look on FaceBook, Follow all these bloggers on Instagram and ask myself why am I not successful like them, why don't I have clear, cute pictures. I mean I can go on and on. 

I am my own worse critic. I am my own roadblock. No one is stopping me from being successful but myself. 

J (my husband) helped me realize that I need to get inspiration the old school way. Get my creative juices flowing by breaking out some magazines and creating inspiration boards, read some books... Real books, not E-Books (not knockin' e-books in any way, but I can concentrate more with a book in my hands). Have a small notepad to sketch in, that type of stuff... Just really gather inspiration from things outside of a screen.

Lately I've been getting back into my groove and have some ideas up my sleeve, slowly getting out of my funk. I'm going to stop using the excuse of not having my own creative space  as the reason I'm not doing anything and just stop making excuses period. lol. 

How do you get your creative juices flowing? I'd love to know!


*image found here

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Quality Family Time + Family Pictures

So as some of you may know, J's ship date for basic training changed from November to September. That may not seem like a real big change, but that went from 4 months to 2 months of spending time together before our life basically changes. So now that he's leaving in september he is going to miss Juelz's 2nd birthday in october, but he will be able to spend the holidays with us... So thats better than nothing lol.

Anyways, J is leaving work at the beginning of august so he will be able to spend time with us before he leaves which is totally great. We have a list of things we want to do, and we definitely are going to have a lot of beach days. I am planning J a Birthday/Going Away party for the end of august, and then my little brother has his marine bootcamp graduation the weekend before J leaves. We will be pretty busy up until he leaves but it will definitely be quality family time.

I really wanted to take new family pictures before Justin left so I posted something on my local community Facebook page looking for a affordable photographer and I was extremely lucky enough to have a very sweet woman reach out to me and offer to take our photos. Her name is Kea and her photography Facebook page can be found here. We met her for our picture session this past sunday at the extremely beautiful Paramount Ranch, where they filmed the show Dr.Quinn Medicine woman, in Agoura Hills, California. She was totally amazing, Kea definitely made us feel comfortable and it didn't even feel like it was our first meeting her. Since she has a toddler of her own, she was completely understanding of Juelz's  mixed emotions and was very patient of us. Not only did we meet a great photographer, but I was happy to meet a new mommy friend as well.

We received our pictures monday night and I literally teared up going through them. They were all absolutely beautiful, J and I were so happy with all of them... We still are. In between wrangling Juelz to take the pictures, and bribing him with lollipops and future popsicles (lol), it wasn't until I was going through each picture that I realized I get so caught up in the whirlwind of things that I never just stop and enjoy the beauty of the moment. I think it's safe to say that happens with a lot of people, and most of the time its moms. Seeing the joy that was captured in these pictures, I'm able to relive it over and over again and I am so thankful for that.

I wanted to share some more pictures with you guys below that I haven't put on facebook or ig, hope you guys enjoy!


*All pictures shared in this post are copyright of Marie A. Ellis and may not be shared without permission.